"I have always known that God is a God of love. For God so loved the world, etc. I could recite the verses, sing the songs, speak the truth. But for a long time, I lived like he was a God of anger, disappointment, and disapproval."
We all have a unique way of looking at the world that is shaped by our culture, experiences, and whatever else we put in our brains. Your worldview shapes (and is shaped by) your understanding of who God is, who you are, and how those things relate